I realized that Neo and Smith were always just two sides of the same coin. One can easily translate that into the light and the dark.
In my own life, I experienced two deep soul bonds that mirrored this exact dynamic. Like Smith and Neo, the experiences themselves were opposite sides of the same coin: the dark and the light.
What I hadn’t acknowledged until now was that I had to merge the two versions of me that were brought to the surface during the aftermath of each connection.
On one side was the version of me left out in the cold, experiencing the heavy, dark side of survival. On the other side was the version of me shining like gold, hanging out in the clouds with iridescent lights and rainbows.
One might call the first version the shadow self; our inner Smith. The other is our lighter self; our inner Neo.
Remember how Neo finally surrendered to Smith at the end of the third Matrix movie to end the war? That surrender ultimately led to peace with the machines. Well, the peace didn’t last forever if you watched the fourth movie, but it permanently changed the meaning of collaboration. Humans and machines, working together. To a point.
Now, in my personal life, I am witnessing this exact merge as a profound sense of completion.
It is an inner peace, but the type that is earthly, not hanging fifty inches up in the sky. I believe this is what is called the integration of matter and antimatter. The ether fusing with the human.
True mastery is spirituality without losing your ground. It is living an earthly life without falling back into old patterns from lower frequencies. Ultimately, it is enjoying your life without getting emotionally traumatized. It is living with true equanimity.
Gratitude is the only word that describes the point I have arrived at. It is certainly a sweet spot to hang out at, especially after integrating acceptance, joy, peace, love, and a hint of enlightenment.
Right now, I am simply immersing myself in the joys of a safe nervous system, stable emotional states, an inner calm, patience, and non-attachment. Standing in a state of absolute allowance, living a normal human life, without escaping myself.
It’s truly a gift.
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